Wednesday, 26 June 2019

My medical school experience

Somehow I have now completed my medical degree, and am graduating in a month's time. I thought it would be interesting to describe my preconceptions versus the reality of medical school.

I really had no idea what to expect. I didn't have any close friends who were medical students, and I was under the impression that training had changed a lot over the past 30 years. My only two preconceptions were: everyone is posh and it's going to be bloody hard work. 

The reality of my medical degree, 2014-2019, was this:

It was very clique-y
I had the impression most applicants were from private school. Surely everyone would have a double-barrelled surname and be a member of the conservative party? Apparently not. There's no denying most people would be considered middle class, but there was much more diversity compared to my sixth form. Everyone formed their friendship groups very quickly and there was not a lot of movement after that. You all had your set part of the lecture theatre you sat in, where you ate at lunch, what study area of the library you used. 

Healthcare professionals are sometimes horrible 
This was the biggest shock to me. I was a very na├»ve 18 year old who wanted to help people  (I know) and hated confrontation. I was floored by how people spoke to each other and how obvious the hierarchy was. Some doctors had a real God complex. There was so much slagging off of other health care professionals and patients. I couldn't believe people actually treated each other in that way. 

It's not all hard work...  but it is relentless hoop jumping
I vividly remember my first anatomy lectures and feeling like it was in a different language. I never learnt Latin or Greek at school. I would write down every word I hadn't heard before and by the end of the lecture I had pages of completely incomprehensible scribbles of words I would Google later. What was everyone saying? Then when you began clinical placements it was non-stop acronyms. What was BIBA? MOFT/TOFT? Having said that, most of the concepts weren't much more complex than what we did at A level. The overwhelming quantity of information seemed ridiculous. You would memorise the circle of Willis and be able to apply it clinically, only to completely forget it 3 months later when revisiting your notes. Some essays seemed completely pointless. It was very demoralising when I spent so long on a research project I was passionate about for my supervisor to go AWOL and never mark it. No explanation, definitely no apology. It was a constant hoop jumping exercise and I don't think that will ever go away as you progress into postgraduate medical training. 

Not everyone wants to practice medicine
I could not believe people would put themselves through so much hard work whilst feeling that medicine was not the career for them. I loved the subject and that motivated me to persevere through the exams. I could not have done it without that fascination, yet many people did not enjoy it at all and still put themselves through the relentless exams and did much better than me. 

People start asking you for advice
I try not to tell people I am a medical student, but when you do it often follows with lots of medical-related questions. Questions they must think we are equipped to answer but we are really not! Doctors know that it is wrong and unethical to treat close friends and family, but you are guaranteed to be asked by most people you know for advice and answers to their medical queries. 

Formaldehyde makes you hungry
Going back to learning anatomy, it is quite unnerving to spend 2-3 hours looking at deceased bodies preserved in formaldehyde and then start feeling really hungry. People  often said formaldehyde was previously used to induce hunger in patients with anorexia nervosa but I haven't been able to find any evidence of this. 

You have to accept a far away placement, or several
I think every medical school has their equivalent of the hospital placement that is very far away and possibly very rural, and you cross everything hoping you won't be sent there. I never knew you had this obligatory process of changing hospitals so often throughout training, with very little say. You have to cover most if not all the transportation costs yourself. It was a shock to realise all of medical training has this element of uncertainty where you will be forced to work. 

The training pathway is longer than you expected
Minimum 5 years of medical school, 2 years foundation training, then 3 years specialist training if you want to be a GP. Some specialities provide run through training (4+ years training immediately after foundation training), others require an intermediate stage ie Core Surgical Training (2 years) or Internal Medicine Training (now 3 years), then followed by 4+ years of specialist training. And that doesn't take into account a possible year out after foundation training ('F3' year), sick leave, maternity leave, less than full time training, fellowships or PhDs. Oh, and the assumption you will get a sought-after training number on your first application, or pass your postgraduate exams first time (many don't). This realisation was enough to put many students off the speciality they thought they were going into medical school for.  

You feel very average, if not wholly inferior to everyone else
I had a huge confidence crisis at medical school. I would work as hard as I could to be just plain average. I have been slowly building that confidence back, but I have struggled to accept that I'm not very good at the academic side of medicine and do much better in the clinical and communication side of it. This is kind of a relief because the human interaction was what made me want to be a doctor, but it's fair to say medical school 'put me in my place'. It has adversely affected me, because now I shy away from academic projects. The irony of this is it potentially weakens my future job applications. Over the last few months I've said no to two poster presentations that my supervisors suggested I should do, because I didn't think I was clever enough.

Doctors work a million more hours than the ones they're paid for
I have so much respect for doctors now I understand the training pathway better. It really is relentless. At each stage those hoops become more challenging and there are more and more to jump through. They are the humans we expect to be superheroes, who we criticise in the media for not being so; the people that have to pay to work, and work hours they will never be paid for. 

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